I have a writer's heart. I long to fill pages and pages with stories and thoughts and prayers and characters and feelings and whatnot. Yet somehow, I have reached my early thirties without a consistent habit of writing. Even journalling is intermittent for me. I have spent considerable time trying to discover the cause for this anomaly and had no success. Awhile back I thought reading the writings of others might inspire me to do likewise so I started reading some blogs. I started with friends and family(all women, by coincidence) and found it a lovely way to keep in touch. I shied away from the blogs of strangers because I thought reading about strangers and their children would be weird. Then one day a college friend posted something with a link to another blog by someone I had never met. I took the plunge and clicked the link. It was the start of a new chapter for me.
Through that one original blogger and her phenomenal life and writing I have since discovered a number of other blogs about other women and their phenomenal lives and writings. It has been a rejuvenating experience for me. My life in the world of stay at home mothering hasn't always been easy, nor has it usually been encouraging. I so often went to bed feeling I had failed. Failed at mothering. Failed at housekeeping. Failed at being a wife and friend and daughter and sister. Just failed. It was a very disheartening way to live. All of the typical daily struggles of a SAHM were compounded by our family travelling through a season of many sad events and emotional turmoils and stresses of nearly every kind imaginable. I was not, as they say, "in a good place". Our life has settled down some since then and we are thankful, but I cannot find adequate words to explain how much these strangers and their blogs soothed my battered little heart through those times. If there is such a thing as first aid for the soul, this was it. They unknowingly gave me hope amidst my moments of discouragement. I am grateful to them all.
My hope for this little blog is to find MY voice and with it, my own thoughts on the world and my life. I seem to have lost those things somewhere along this journey. Someday I hope I can share something that helps another battered soul through her day.
I understand completely. I've been there needing a battered heart soothed.
ReplyDeleteYou are definitely a writer.
ps. the email you are looking for is annvoskamp@gmail.com and you can also go to her post every Monday and put in a link to your own if you would like others to find you. :)
thanks for the encouragement and the email address.
ReplyDeleteI also love the encouragement I receive by reading other SAHM's blogs. Thank God for the community of late-night writers (at least that's when I have a moment to think...)
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