Sometimes I wonder if I have lost my mind. Do you do that? I'd like to believe other people, especially Moms, feel that way fairly often. It would make me feel less weird and more included. :)
It should be said that there isn't really anything crazy going on in our house right now. I mean, nothing beyond 7 people and a 90 pound dog in 1400 square feet with 1 bathroom. And preparing for Christmas. And helping Bill figure out what he wants to do when he graduates in May. And trying to teach the kids to love God and behave with a modicum of respect and kindness to each other and to us. When I put it like that I guess I can see why sometimes other people look at me strangely. Honestly though, so much of the time I just think "what's the big deal folks? this is my life, I don't spend time pondering how I will ever manage to care for all 4 kids because I'm too busy actually taking care of them. And Bill. And the dog. And Bob. And even myself sometimes. Do I get tired and frustrated? Regularly. Do I lose my temper over silly things more often than I'd like? Yes. That's because I, like most people, am not perfect. That used to really really bother me. I'm mostly over that now; don't misunderstand me I still spend more time than is probably useful berating myself over my shortcomings. Just not about not being perfect.
Anyway what I was trying to say was that while I sort of get why my life may look more complicated or crazier than some, I don't really understand why people act as though I am somehow heroically competent or strong or whatever just because I have several kids. I'm just a regular Mom, trying to keep everyone fed and marginally clean and reasonably adjusted. I don't shoot for well-adjusted, just basic adjusted.
I would, however, really like to spend more time on some hobbies. I feel like a few good creative projects would be therapeutic for me. But that's probably another post entirely. Have a good day.
